Day 27 -- September 19, 2010

Well for today! I woke up and decided to go to 8 am service, the blessing was I didn't have to go to children's church and serve. After years of being there every Sunday I must admit it feels good that every first and third Sunday, I can go to service and leave! Today was good for two reasons: (1) Rivion said something that really pricked my heart, "Why be afraid of your own greatness". (2) I enjoyed it because I realize I must read some books on being a fatherless daughter. I realize I am sometimes on a search (e.g., men, dating, going out with men, etc.) but though I know right from wrong (sin from death) I also realize this is real and it pulls on me. Maybe that pull will always be there; but I atleast want to know the source of that urge to want that "man thing". Today I would get some job applications done, go tutor and return home to prepare for my week. I also think a good walk around the lake before it gets dark would be a good work out routine, I realize I love exercising outdoors. I came home and added a book to my book-writing list (the books I will write). I went to the storage place today to take my movies back and I just looked at my stuff in storage and said, "It really doesn't matter". I said Father, I thank you the condo will be rented out soon and I look forward to everyday returning to my true living...my true living. I also realize I'm not afraid to ask GOD for whatever I want; but even more important, I must daily come to HIM and ask HIM what does HE want? In the end the latter is so much more important than the first. May I be disciplined, focused and sacrificial.