Day 24 -- September 16

I must say today was a good and bad day. I walked 3 miles with my co-worker and I am so happy. I'm not sure if this happiness is a result of a changed mindset. But I realize I have a fire in my belly that is burning. I have applied for at least 2 jobs each night (Federal Government and Georgia Board of Education), while watching television. I find that its hard for me to sit and do nothing; I seem I have been so un-productive that now its important to do the work. I am eating well; but eating some popcorn has hit me three days in a row -- Trader Joes has received $2 for 3 days in a row (LOL). I don't have a desire for sweets which is good. I just want to learn a good balance. I've really been thinking about my family and all that I want to do with them and I realize there are many things I want; but what GOD wants right now is so much important to me. I'm reading Donald Trumps book "Entreprenership 101" and enjoying it so much. I've been walking around telling GOD all that I am thankful for. My co-worker and I are not speaking and though we are so cool - I realize at this point in my life its so hard for me to walk on eggshells to be friends with anyone; so I will keep it cojial until GOD tells me otherwise. This is the third time this has happened between us. This mandate is doing some awesome things with my thinking. I wrote my affirmation and goals for 2010-2011 and I read them out loud everyday. My mom wants a 60th birthday party so I guess I will become a planner afterall! This week was pretty good, I have wanted to just do things without so much though; because usually with so much thought I talk myself out of it. As I drove in my car, the word "blessing" continued to come to mind so I will say good bye to do a word study for a little bit on "blessing", I want to know how to walk in GOD's blessing continually. Reading the Untangling Relationships book has been difficult because it seems I'm just being obedient to my pastor and thought it wasn't for me; but I realize I have to continually work at not allowing my mother to be so dependent of me. I had to tell her tonight, I have my own bills and cannot always do everything that I want to do. It felt so good; it was a AHA/WOW moment.

Thank you Lord, for this mandate!